…”The fact remains that I am stuck in between two dreams and desires; drawn now one way, now the other; never feeling I could have both, however much my friends, and the 21st century, insist that I can “Have It All”. In my singleminded nature, the two desires feel threateningly incompatible. And being ‘in-between’ often makes me feel I could never make real progress in either desired direction. Some days I feel as if I’d like …”